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	      <title><![CDATA[sleepy]]></title>
	      <link>http://kellyrawr.buzznet.com/user/journal/3553181/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Sup buzznet?
So im abnormally awake right now. Its 2:05am sunday morning...im never really awake, but I am right now. That inkling of exhaustion still hasn't crept into my mind. My legs ache. My back hurts. Listening to checkmarks makes me happy. This voice is amazingly lovely right now. Maybe ill go listen to everything we had and fall asleep. Byaz.
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		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>kellyrawr</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-12-27T23:07:57Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[election-eh]]></title>
	      <link>http://kellyrawr.buzznet.com/user/journal/3310691/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Yea, happy All Saints Day all.<br>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; As we near closer and closer to the inevitable ELECTION DAY, it makes me think honestly about how I want this to turn out. I mean, who we choose will determine the next four, maybe even eight, years of our lives and for a lot of us, our first years of adulthood. It's kind of hard to determine just who I want in the White House just yet. Seeing and hearing what each candidate and their running mates respectively say doesn't help. One minute is total agreement and the next it's "what the heck are you saying?!" Life tends to turn on you like that.<br>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; November 4, 2008 will be a day to be remembered, maybe just for a year, maybe for years to come, hopefully, for something extraordinary. Maybe this day will change the course of our meek existence on this planet and give our country a complete 180 like we need. Maybe it'll be the beginning to our downfall. The universe is funny that way. We won't know until it happens. <br>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Just watching or listening to debates and watching the news brings up so many concerns and worries for our country. I don't believe we can continue the way we are, as most everyone agrees, but some suggestions seem a little worriesome. I'm almost glad I can't vote this year. Talking to my friend a couple days ago, we both agree that we wouldn't vote for either Obama or McCain, neither impress us or strike us as being "the one." I worry about each's policy and views and how much will likely happen from each's plans. <br>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I guess I'll never know unless one wins. I mean, one <span style="text-decoration: underline;">will</span> win, but maybe I'm rooting for them both to lose.<br><br>Thank goodness I can't vote.<br><br>-Kelly.<br>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>2008</category>
		  		  	<category>election</category>
		  		  	<category>mccain</category>
		  		  	<category>obama</category>
		  		  	<category>views on election</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>kellyrawr</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-11-02T19:23:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Listen]]></title>
	      <link>http://kellyrawr.buzznet.com/user/journal/3198731/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<p style="text-align: center;" class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle">Sometimes it denies,<br>Sometimes it learns.<br>
Beating lies and truths,<br>
Never easy, but never hard.<br>
Leveling your head.</p>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>heart</category>
		  		  	<category>life</category>
		  		  	<category>listen</category>
		  		  	<category>poetry</category>
		  		  	<category>random</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>kellyrawr</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-15T20:33:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[The Day Her Music Died]]></title>
	      <link>http://kellyrawr.buzznet.com/user/journal/3198691/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<p class="MsoNormalCxSpFirst" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Words slowly creeping across a page</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Scrawling ideas in search of relief</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She stops to pause</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">To slow her pain</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">But nothing lets her forget that day</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">The day, her music died.</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">A bright summer day,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Full of potential and hope</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Turned drastically wicked in a matter of
hours</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Sleep is one beauty she will never
regain</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">After witnessing her world shattering</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Never to be put back again.</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Her and her family,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Quietly sitting around</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Peaceful and solemn,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Tranquility found.</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Then, there was a sharp bang at the
window,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">And then another at the door,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">And quickly a man wound up on their
floor.</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Cold blooded and ruthless,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">This man went around,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">He struck each one of her family members
down.</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Except for the girl, a smart one, she
was</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She went to the closet to keep safe,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">And breathing slowly and quietly she
waited ‘til dawn,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">To come from her post, not even starting
a yawn.</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She crept to her knees and stumbled into
her home,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">But a home she will never consider it
again.</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">For each of her family was lying on the
ground,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Pools of abomination</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Victims of rage</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She stands and just looks upon her old
family.</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She slowly starts away, towards the
phone, then the door</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Opens it and runs until she can’t run
anymore</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She ends up in a park and sits on a
small bench</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Watching and listening to everything</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Anything</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Two small blue birds, flutter on by</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Jealously watching them fly to their
nest,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Where their family awaited them, sitting
patiently</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Until one bird, the smallest of all</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Decided to fly </p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">But couldn’t</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">And falls</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She slowly moves over toward the small
flightless bird</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Picks it up and gently holds it while
the parents start to sing</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She gently lets down the bird while the
parents swoop down</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">She watches, curiously, as they try to
lift it up</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">But the fall was too much</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">As the parents sing, </p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">Slowly closing its eyes,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">The bird dies</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">The parents stopped singing and looked
toward the sky,</p>

<p class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal;">It was the day, their music died.</p>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>day</category>
		  		  	<category>died</category>
		  		  	<category>her</category>
		  		  	<category>music</category>
		  		  	<category>people</category>
		  		  	<category>poetry</category>
		  		  	<category>random</category>
		  		  	<category>the</category>
		  		  	<category>tragedy</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>kellyrawr</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-15T20:29:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Masked]]></title>
	      <link>http://kellyrawr.buzznet.com/user/journal/3198661/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[self-pity<br>self-doubt<br>what the hell do we know about how we're supposed to feel<br>And what is even real?<br><br>we walk with a mask<br>and keep the green inside.<br>falling in stride<br>never to confide<br>in what we feel is true to ourselves<br><br>told this and that<br>ways to live<br>ways to die<br>ways to hide the uniqueness in ourselves.<br><br>unimportant<br>foolish<br>meaning all the world to the thoughts inside<br>bursting and bubbling to break free and explode through the world<br>to tell what is really going on inside<br>instead, the glossy covers and faux images on the silver screen portray our lives<br><br>the lives we have.<br>and the others around us.<br>or so we're told.<br><br>and it is engrained into our memories and into our culture that this <span style="text-decoration: underline;">is</span> the way<br>and this <span style="text-decoration: underline;">is</span> right.<br><br>that line has been blurred one too many times.<br>life becoming one on-screen scene.<br>the cameras never stop rolling, no director to yell "Cut"<br><br>just the daily trauma of thinking you're no good<br>life sucks<br>people hate you.<br><br>sugar coated and hand fed<br>coming on a silver platter<br>no wonder lies come easier than truth.]]></description>
		  		  	<category>culture</category>
		  		  	<category>life</category>
		  		  	<category>people</category>
		  		  	<category>poetry</category>
		  		  	<category>random</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>kellyrawr</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-15T20:27:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Writing]]></title>
	      <link>http://kellyrawr.buzznet.com/user/journal/3198611/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Time slips slowly over faded lines.<br>Things long since remembered fade back into focus.<br>Thoughts flourish at the strokes.<br>Lines curve the thoughts past and present, flowing from the rememberance.<br>Ages since these times brought forth but seemingly relative.<br>Pauses, aching for the simpler times when things seemed easy and people were naive.<br>These times, like the marks upon the structured lines, have ended.<br>Sometimes too abruptly.<br>These are fixed and made to be whole again,<br>When really, they were only masked to seem whole again.<br>Then suddenly, these marks fade just as the time which occupied them.<br>Ended by one remark.<br>Finally.]]></description>
		  		  	<category>writing poetry</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>kellyrawr</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-15T20:17:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Is There A Point?]]></title>
	      <link>http://kellyrawr.buzznet.com/user/journal/3198551/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Is there a point to this world?<br>Back in the time where everything was sound.<br>People were free, in their minds and alls'.<br>Now, the dark depths rein in the midst of the day.<br>No way is up, down rather hard to find.<br>Negative and more negative as we revolve in this rotating denial.<br>Forgetting, losing.<br>Death, denial.<br>Not hope, faith.<br>All is lost.<br>All is found.<br>Gain is made through the struggle and the strife.<br>Gain is made in this forget.<br>Gain is made in this loss.<br>In death and denial the faces of hope and faith shine through to all who are looking.<br>Is there a point to this world?]]></description>
		  		  	<category>world a point is there poetry prose random thoughts culture peop</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>kellyrawr</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-15T20:14:00Z</dc:date>
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